I thought about writing about this a while back but I was not sure on how to break into the story.
The last few days I have been free of the entwining tubing coming from the insulin pump, the beeping and constant checking of the CGM (continuous glucose monitor) that allows me to survive, although I am now using syringes and insulins injection pens, I actually feel a little freedom from it all.
So the situation that made we want to write about this great ‘freedom’ I am feeling??
Well… you know those times when you are so busy that you think you can hold onto the turtle head poking out down there? When you know you need to go but there is so much going on that you think you can hold it, then suddenly you get that pain and oh crap (pun intended) you have to go NOW, running to the toilet with the most awkward looking pose and extreme urgency, you drop the dacks (pants), park your butt on the cold seat, and oh yeah let it go…..back it up to dropping the dacks, so when you have a pump infusion set attached to one hip and your buldging CGM sensor attached to the other hip, just dropping the dacks is not that simple.
Whilst trying to control my bodily functions, I have to pull out my….pump and place it under my chin as the tubing is too short to put anywhere else, holding it there whilst I carefully pull my pants over the sensor so it does not get knocked off, then down the pants go and its time for the oh yeah…
Don’t get me wrong, it does do a good job having these devices attached, monitoring, infusing, alarming and keeping my in the know but having them off the last few days has been great as well, having my body free of attachments, it makes me just want to run around in the nude, obviously apart from my wife people would not appreciate this.
Today being the first day of school holidays we venture to the city on the train with the kids, usually I would have the pump in one pocket and the CGM device in the other, not leaving much room for other things, today was the opposite, my jeans pockets were only filled with a phone and my wallet, it felt great, almost like T1D was not with me, until its time to eat and then reality comes back, test, formulate a plan and inject.
Sometimes just not being attached makes you feel like a normal non-diabetic person.
The CGM is back on, however I am still taking injections of insulin to keep my blood sugars down and in a stable range, so far it working. I reached out to the close knit T1D awesome community and found a less intrusive place to put the CGM sensor in aim of having a more ‘comfortable’ experience, thanks awesome people for your help, you know who you are!